i have to go to the doctors tomorrow and i’m really scared

i just weighed myself………………………………………………

i finally got down to like 55kg last week and i’ve put it all back on i’m 58 again

i can’t fucking believe this

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i lost like 2 kgs then i put it back on and i’m sad

i’m really sad and i just wanna cry and die

i’d rather not eat than eat and throw it up because throwing up doesn’t make you lose weight like not eating does.

i haven’t kept any of the food i’ve eaten in for like the past month

how do i stop myself from getting bad heart pain